Lost.

So, I have lost about 12 pounds; I weighed 136, now I way 120, and are continuing on the diet in the hopes of becoming 110. The diet plan is pretty much no sweets, no meat, no bread, or any heavy carb-ish type thing. I must say, eating Special K really helps, and I've realized how obsessed I am with being skinny. Infact, I am fighting hunger pains currently as I type. I find that being skinny is going to make me happier, I hope I'm rite. Otherwise I've turned down alot of my old favorite candies and fatty foods. GOD...I miss fatty foods.
Plus I have to be thinner because I am going to be joining the Academy of Ballet. I need to be in stick thin shape.
Again, I hope this makes me happy the way I think it's going to.
I guess I feel as if something productive is being done. I am still trying to sort out the reasons why I wake up in the morning.


Wheres the motivation?....the lingering hunger for passion?
...to be a kid again.